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Only one person I know in real life reads my blog. H knows about it but doesn know where it is and won look for it. I asked him not to as I wanted to write about his issues as well, and knew that if I knew he was reading it that would cramp my style. But recently I been almost wishing he would read it, at least the recent stuff.
I not going to tell any other RL people about it. I want to be able to bitch and moan without worrying about the consequences!
















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